Living in Darkness

The Aries Festival

2008-03-19T03:32:58Z

Since the time of Aries approaches, here is a list of the items I have planned that I want to work on during Aries. I know I haven't updated my journal much as of late, but I have been writing in a journal. That one just happens to be my journal for my Humanities class.

Aries 2008 Festival

Love of a Ram – Mu has loved Hana, the Angel Saint, ever since he first saw her when he was ten years old. Ten years later, the Angel Saint returns but she doesn’t act like the Hana Mu knew so he isn’t sure it’s her. Is it truly Hana? If so, what happened to her in ten years that made her change from the happy girl Mu knew?

Beloved Mu – Poems and songs written by or dedicated to Mu of Aries

Am I dreaming? – A fanart during Love of a Ram when Mu first sees Hana again and can’t believe his eyes.

I want to be over him..

2008-02-20T10:08:27Z

Why can't I seem to get him out of my mind? Lately, Andrew's been a lot of my thoughts lately. It's like... I can't go anywhere without seeing something or thinking of something that reminds me of him. I've hardly talked to him since our breakup. I talked to Jess and she says he's probably just focusing on college and I know she's right. Still... I miss him. I really do. Even before we broke up, I was missing him. Missing the Andrew I'd gotten to know over break. I don't know.. maybe I can blame college for making him too tired to do the cute things he always did over break. But I really did miss that.

Now though.. I miss everything. How happy it would make me feel to hear his voice when he'd call or when I would call him. How safe I would feel just talking to him. It made me feel I had someone to live for, other than myself. After my ex Justin, I felt so broken that I didn't know what to do. I never found a way to heal from all I'd been put through with Ian and Justin. I felt... used by both of them. The people who don't really know me couldn't have telled any difference, but ever since them and before Andrew, I wasn't really happy. I just didn't FEEL happy, even if I acted like it. A fake happy I guess it was.

When I met Andrew, everything changed. I changed. I'm not as emotional as I have been. (Though I am right now because I'm crying for the first time in two weeks) I feel like I've got better control over my emotions and that I'm stronger. Its just... I don't know how to get over Andrew. Sure, I can bury myself in school, work, writing and other things I enjoy and I can also change how I look and spend time with my friends. But.. when it all comes down to it, will I be able to get over him? He changed me for the better.

Why do breakups have to be so damn hard? And why do I ALWAYS find the one song that describes how I'm feeling right now? x__x

Hallo~!

2007-11-22T11:11:20Z

Hi everyone! My name is Amelia and I'm 17 years old, with dreams of becoming an author someday. I'm a Pagan Witch and dislike it when anyone asks me if I worship Satan. As long as you keep an open mind about my religion, I'll do the same. Some of my interests include ancient cultures and languages, animals, anime, astrology, drawing, fairies, Gaelic, Korean, mythologies, nature, reading, video games, witchcraft, and writing.

During the year, I'll be celebrating the 12 signs of the zodiac through festivals which I will post in my journal Such things I'll post during these times will be fanart, fanfics, drabbles, graphics, etc. I won't be starting this until the Zodiacal New Year, on March 21st. When it gets closer to that date, I'll explain more about what I'm planning to do for each festival.

Festival List:
Festival of the Ram(Aries) ∼ March 21-April 20
Festival of the Bull(Taurus) ∼ April 21-May 20
Festival of the Twins(Gemini) ∼ May 21-June 20
Festival of the Crab(Cancer) ∼ June 21-July 20
Festival of the Lion(Leo) ∼ July 21-August 20
Festival of the Virgin(Virgo) ∼ August 21-September 20
Festival of the Scales(Libra) ∼ September 21-October 20
Festival of the Scorpion(Scorpio) ∼ October21-November 20
Festival of the Arrow(Sagittarius) ∼ November21-December 20
Festival of the Goat(Capricorn) ∼ December21-January 20
Festival of the Water Bearer(Aquarius) ∼ January21-February 20
Festival of the Fish(Pisces) ∼ February 21-March 20

Some of my entries will be friends only and the even more private ones will be set so that just my closest friends can read them.